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June 07 Better don't read.Today again i'm unhappy. I noticed that almost every blog of mine that i've written are all about my sad things. It's real because i like to release my anger in this blog. So i should change the title for my blog to "Welcome to my sad world".
I actually also don't know how to say, how to describe the sadness, and don't even know what happen on me, what's making me to be like this? Just the feeling unsatisfactory.
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The life is full of commitment. What's life suppose to be?
February 28 BoringI don't know what i want now. I just have uneasy feeling. I'm not in mood and just like not happy with "something". What is that thing?
School juz open yesterday, and because of this i quite free and relax, coz no homeworks no exam no assignment. Everyday go to school just find a seat and see the lecturer talking. But this will only happen on this week. I think start from next week will be very busy!
Because of too free at home, i don't know what suppose i do now. Playing games? Watching tv? Playing friendster? Surfing net? Msn? Everyday also do the same things, really bored with it! And think of my coming assignment for webpage design, i got a bit stress, coz i really don't know anything about it! How to design? I heard HTML is very hard, how i'm going to understand it?
February 07 Stay The SameDon't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly. Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are. When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far. And I hope you always stay the same, Cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside. Don't be afraid if you've got something to say, Just open up your heart and let it show you the way. Believe in yourself. Reach down inside. The love you find will set you free. Believe in yourself, you will come alive. Have faith in what you do. You'll make it through. This is a song which i listened before during my secondary school time but i never try to understand what's the song about. Recently i re-listen again when SOMEBODY asked me to understand the lyrics, i began to like this song because for me this song is very meaningful.
It's not neccessary for us to envy people's looks or look down ourselves whenever we are not pretty enough. When there is somebody really love and care of you, he or she will not care so much about your looks. Just Stay The Same - be yourself!
January 28 FinalzIt's time to write blog again. Long time didnt touch this, coz was busy with final exam. Juz now saw my friend's blog talked something about the final exam, and now make me have the same feeling want to release all my tension here. Haha.
For me, overall, the exam is ok, but quite worry with some subjects that will push my marks down. Like sociology and Mass Comm, this two are the most "DANGEROUS" and " HORRIBLE" subjects in my life. Let's talk about sociology. Well, sociology actually is a nice subject to read, especially when u read the text book - Sociology - A down to earth approach 7th edition, actually it is just like a story on how they view the world. Unfortunately, i discover the "interesting" too late. As what u all know students' style - study last minutes when the exam coming.
I have bad feeling towards my exam especially Sociology. The questions that i can't answer is exactly incorrect and the questions that i can asnwer doesn't mean is correct. So, to get good grade in this final is very hard! The essay part especially i cannot answer. I don't know what rubbish i put. The question asking about the gendar behaviour differences is due to social and culture factors. Then based on the Sociologist Cynthia XXX write out the 4 factors.
Good question. Usually, those questions that cannot be answered is considered good questions, because it gives "burden" to people to use all their might to think. Once i look at the question i actually quite happy, but when i re-read again, the 4 Factors, i started worrying. I wonder what is the 4 factors? Do i need to focus on the 4 factors? Or just write those Cynthia's reseach and analysis towards this question? And finally, i wrote my own theory. Since when i become the world sociologist? huh...
Another subject, Mass Comm, is a very interesting subject but it's not suitable for me, coz i hate to write mass comm writing and news story. The night before the exam, i was quite relax and very confident that the question will not be that tough. I searched for the pass year paper, and the questions is quite easy. Unfortunately, today the format had changed. Those students with good mass communication i think can score well. But for me? sigh.. And it wants us to give explaination towards some words like "Embargo". I don't understand this word and started create my own story there. I wonder how the examinor will react due to my lousy and funny answer paper. Those irrelated information i put a lot inside.
Tell the truth, overall, i think still ok. But it doesn't mean i can score well. I hope i can score well too, but the chance is quite low! I don't care, now is my Holidays. I Love Holidays, this is what i wait long time ago. =) However, i need to stay at here around 2 weeks, only then i can go back to my hometown. Before this i do not know that my exam end earlier, coz i book the ticket quite long time ago.
So miss my hometown, which could give me Happiness. And chinese new year coming soon. Haha... October 30 New phone I'm now really in a bad mood. Just now i wrote a draft here but don't know waht the shit all gone. Now is my second times wrote the same things.
Actually before this i was angry with my new phone. I bought it yesterday and i like very much. But when i went back to home i started feel uneasy coz original phone will not be sold that cheap. And today when i talked about it to my friends, only then i discovered it is not an original phone. I was so angry in the class just now, and angry until now, maybe will angry until the day i feel like not angry. The seller (not sure is he/she, looks like girl and boy) so irritating and annoying, i asked him is it original, he said yeah... and then he explaint to me how to ensure it is original phone. Ohh no... i think i should say, he was trying to persuade me to buy the phone.
Another case that happened on my friend is, he bought sony ericsson phone last time but do not consist of any language besides english. After he upgrade his phone, the phone spoilt. So from there i knew it is not an original phone. I checked the phone yesterday, and it has many different languages. Because i was looking to the sony ericsson phone as well. Plus the seller convinced me the phone is original, only then i bought the phone. But now when i think of it, actually the guy is very smart, he is not cheating me, also, he is not telling me the truth. Juz like when i asked him "is the phone original...", he nodded his head and said " yeah... sure"! Yeah, it is ORIGINAL AP, this is what he meant. He didnt tell lies, he didnt say it is original midland phone....
Since this incident i get many lessons and learnt many things. My friends explaint to me a lot of things today. They told me that actually AP and original are almost the same, only they are under different suppliers, and different battery. But once i knew the phone is AP, my heart not satisfy, my anger is at the high position, juz becoz of "A. P." this two alphabet... Damn!
Actually i like the phone very much, i really like it,and the phone is fine...But i feel that it is not perfect! Maybe i too demanded. Lolx... this is my first time bought handphone and this happened on me, but at least i learnt how to make sure it is real original phone. I dont have this knowledge before coz my dad bought to me last time. Well, like one of my classmate said, we will be matured after being cheated (HAHA.... what a "good" saying? Lolx, actually she juz wanna reduce my anger)
Anywayz, i really thanks for those came to console me, explaint to me and call me as well juz for reduce my sadness... HAHA.... Actually i'm okay, but my heart is no OK now.... October 25 Happy bdayHaha... happy birthday to myself! (what a birthday?)
Tomorrow Is my Final Exam, but i feel unprepared, like still have many things i havent get ready, this always happen on me as i always do revision at last minutes. Sigh sigh.... SOBz.
E's diary Wow.. it has been a long time not writing anything here. And the times pass so quickly in a short time. I still remember my first day came to Kl and start my new life..and i never forgotten my first time writing blog was on may on which i very bored during my first week class in UTAR. Well, after my final exam on last sem, i really didn't visit my friend's blog not even mine.
Well, the life in second sem is not very easy.. i almost fainted with the new subjects, and i'm sure i wont be so free like last sem, at least i got no worries and just do whatever i like whether on free time or study time.. this is what i regret now. Lolz... i had asked myself, how my result will be like if i study very hard on last sem? Can i get higher in CGPA? Lolz.. funny question. Even tho my result is not very bad, but actually i'm not satisfy coz i'm sure many UTAR students can get straight A and get better than me!!
Haha... yesterday was my first time working as a promoter. Also yesterday was my first experience. It's kinda fun, i'm SooOOooo happy when i could sell out the products. My leg and whole body was very tired and painful, maybe becoz i stand for the whole day.. lolz.. but not that bad.. it has a lot fun, at least got chance to see different type of customer, from physical look to thier behaviour.
Since i got salary, then i went shopping alone in One U. =( All my friends back to hometown. Actually shopping alone is quite good, u got your own freedom. You do not need to wait for the others and they do not need to wait for u when u are choosing a clothes or whatever ladies stuff! But when u are deciding to buy something, the problem comes coz nobody can give you opinion. Lolx... by the way, i bought a pants and clothes for myself today. My hand so itchy and my heart not satisfy if i do not buy anything! hehe....
This few days i'm trying not to change my mind about my course in degree. Well, i will be taking marketing next year, that was my choice before get in to UTAR, but recently i got many opinions from friends. Some encourage me to take accounting, and some ask me why don i take actuarial science. Lol... Hey, these three subjects i quite like.. But i worry will be regret once i make wrong decision. And since it is so troublesome, i did ask myself suddenly, why i don wanna be a dentist? Actually dentist is a good job, can earn many money.. lol, or be a skin care specialist. Nowadays so many skin problems due to enviroment, or allergic or some minor problems like pimples. I'm sure a lot of ppl willing to spend thier money on thier skin or teeth right, those are for thier own good! lols... but the time not allowed me to change my mind to be a dentist Nor a specialist, coz it is impossible i going to science stream and study the most annoying subjects (science) lol... but for actuarial science, i will try to think about it!
July 22 A little boyI'm not happy today...... that's all!!! And so moody with my life.
And just now when i went to take my dinner in a restaurant which near my house, i saw a little boy who works there. I guess he is about 7 years old. He was scolded because for a mistake. I felt pity with him... actually he is only a kid but has to work.. where's his parents actually? From what i saw just now, he is a hard-working boy, clean up the table, and serve customers but the way his boss scolded him just now, very rude! Maybe for me i will feel very angry and ask him do all those things by his own. But what the boy did just now? He just accept it, and nodding his head, coz he only a child, cannot fight back! I knew the boy quite afraid to do a mistake and he actually also try his best not to do a mistake after being scolded.
July 15 asfnkldsmToday i have a very bad mood! I'm not happy at all today...
Last few days my handphone was stolen by somebody. When and where i lost my phone.. ?? This question still appearing in my mind. I'm not sure where i lost it, when he/ she stole my handset and how they stole my phone.
And suddenly exam and assignment come together. Within few weeks i have to focus on my mid-term exam, assignment and presentation. I got four presentation which one of them will be presented on tomorrow. Hmm.. i don't know whether it is called "stress"? i always believed in myself and set a concept that study is fun and no stress at all. But just now i can cry in my bathroom for quite long time without any reasons. Maybe one of the reasons is i lost my phone last two days, and 2nd reason is about my studies. 3rd one is.. since i came to kl, i felt like nobody takes care of me.
June 21 StudiesWow....
I have not been writing this blog for quite long time. I kinda busy this few weeks.. Busy with assignment, presentation, homeworks... and so on!!! Ohh yeah, almost forgot i have to prepare one more speech for my public speaking!!! Sigh.. i have no idea what topic i'm going to talk? Any idea??
Friends, if u have idea please tell me ok? Hmm... what topic that is the most suitable for me?? I have to choose the topic the could attract my audience and myself as well!
I just had my CS ( Computer studies) quiz today. Hmm... considered ok.. not bad!! At least i am able answer all questions, but doesn't mean i can score all! There is an essay about 24 marks, i don't know whether i gave enough points or not.. i just wrote as what i knew, cause there are only 7 main points for the essay, what else can i write??
So last saturday i took my math quiz too ... wooo!!!! Damn sad, coz over confidence. The questions damn easy, but i couldnt write the correct answer.. coz misinteprete the questions... hiahz... So that's why i said i am S-T-U-P-I-D, easy question also cannot answer.
Hehe... Mid term exam coming soon!!! My econs sure DIE one... Within few weeks my lecturer complete the whole 9 chapter.. i lost. I lost!!! I still in chapter 3 actually... Even though i have do revision for the first 3 chapter.. but doesn't seems i understand what i read! So easy to forget things, but memorizing damn hard!
Actually ECONS only will make people got headache.. initially i though Econs is an interesting subject, but when i read... wow... SOB SOB!!!
 May 28 NewsThis afternoon i saw something very disgusting in my bathroom, it's look like a worm, and look like a leech, but doesnt seems like a leech or worm!! it's very disgusting... 3 of them came out at the same times, like one family!!! And the whole day no matter i read news paper or doing my assignment, the "worm" still vivid in my mind.. and make me cant concentrate.. really hope tonight i wont have nightmare about it! I really wish i wont go inside the bathroom and those stuffs wont appear anymore...
Dear Mr. God and Ms. Angel, please fulfill my wishes ...
~Ahmen~
May 24 Smiling FACE =)Today i am happy...
 I think i have nothing to write today... just wrote this because i wanna remind me that i am happy today.
May 22 My lucky and unlucky day..............
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Argh... Today i was late to school, not because of i overslept, but actually is about the bus problem.
I prepared to school very early today, but who knows? I am the one late one hour more to school... damn! The bus driver not allowed me to take the bus, because of too many passengers. OK, i understand. But the next bus came on when i had waited for about one hour.
 That time i was so afraid if the lecturer not allow me to attend her class... but luckily, nobody notices that i am late. May 21 The Da Vinci CodeWow... it's amazing!!!!
What movies should i recommend you? Of course The Da Vinci Code! It is a nice movie...for sure and quite mysterious. You will keep on watching it and wont feel bored. *o*
Hahahaha....last night was watching the movie, it's midnight and watched it until 3am, but i still alert, so that's means, it is a good movie.
And, if i'm not mistaken, the movie " World Trade Centre" is coming soon, sound like it is about the 911 incident. Let's watch it, if the film already display.
Err.... actually i wanna show u The Da Vinci photos, but seems got a bit problems.
Nevermind......
May 18 OrientationWow.... my legs was so tired today... now i feel like wanna rest my legs. Today is my first day to my new school, what so bad? i go there alone since i have so many things still don't know. Just for registration, i took more than two hours and coincidentaly, it was raining..shit!
During orientation, i was so sleepy coz i have no enough sleep last night...so i didnt pay attention.
Whatever la....
May 16 Sienz....This is my first blog. Well, i kinda bored today, and online more than half day.Still, i wanna break my record, keep on online 24 hours. Actually i not sure what am i writing now, but still have to write something. Err... today i was alone at home, only computer and TV kept me company.. since everybody go out! And i have a lousy lunch just now ...
 whatever, as long as i am able to fill up my stomach, it's enough! And so unlucky today... i don't know who HELPs me to lock up my door and put the keys in my room! Damn.....
luckily i have my own solution to solve the problem...
never seek for helps. (21th century Independent Woman)
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